Harper: 'I'm not dead. Why? Where are we?'
Prior: 'Heaven.'
Harper: 'Heaven ? I'm in Heaven?'

The first website I ever owned was a Star Wars fansite, hosted at GeoCities, back when they still had neighborhoods and street addresses in their URLs. I ran the site under the screen name Shadooine. However, my personal website has its origin in the HIM fansite I used to own. It was first hosted at GeoCities, under my screen name friday_82, but when GeoCities deleted my site I decided to buy a domain, razorbladeklubi.com, in 2000. At some point, I wanted a place on the net that wasn't restricted to a specific fandom and a place where I could list the fanlistings I had joined. I created a small page about me at razorbladeklubi. Soon, this wasn't enough any longer and I moved all my personal stuff over to a brinkster.com account. The site was first called Nox-Lumos, hinting at my love for Harry Potter which reached its peak with the "Harry Potter & the Chamber of Secrets" movie in 2002. Another name, Blue-Milk, hinted at my love for the Original Star Wars Trilogy.
The end of my HIM site (which was mainly brought on by financial considerations, but also by my dwindling interest in the band) marked the birth of still-breathing in 2004. I had always been interested in personal websites and was very excited to be able to build one of my own. It was great to be free to display my interest in anything, and any fandom, I wished. I also had more liberties with my joined fanlistings. The site first had a HTML table layout, featuring "Angels in America". I opened my first fanlisting, the Asta Nielsen fanlisting, in 2004. Since I had fallen in love with the tv show "Queer as Folk" along the way, "Queer as Folk"-related fanlistings and others soon followed. My involvement with fanlistings improved (I think) my HTML and eventually my CSS skills. still-breathing went on hiatus in 2006 for personal reasons, but also because I concentrated mainly on my fanlistings and my fanlisting collective, idiosyncratic. It returned in 2008 with a CSS layout, featuring "Angels in America" yet again, in a much smaller and more humble version. I know that personal websites tend to be a narcissistic endeavor. I'm not quite sure what to do with it yet, but I hope it will become a place that will tell people a little bit about me, will offer some goodies for visitors and display my interests and efforts at webdesign. For a blog, look here or visit my livejournal.




version 3.0 - 3.5: Justin Kirk as Prior Walter in "Angels in America". The theme was "Close your eyes. Imagine", displaying the scene in which Prior imagines dancing with his ex-boyfriend Louis Ironson. It's one of my most touching scenes I ever read, and watched.




version 2.0: featuring various scenes from the then recently released HBO production of "Angels in America". The theme was "Sweet, sweet oblivion". Not one of my finest graphic designs, but I wanted a layout which included everything Angels and displayed my favorite quotes from the plays.



version 1.0: Jason Isaacs as Lucius Malfoy in "Harry Potter & the Chamber of Secrets". Back then there were a lot of Lucius Malfoy layouts and what can I say? I wanted one, too. I loved it very much, especially because I had been a fan of Jason Isaacs for years.